"i wanna quit the gym"!!

Okay, you know that episode of FRIENDS where Chandler wants to quit the gym?! For all of you who know what I'm talking about, that is how I felt the other day! Only it was not the gym, it was my Rogers cell phone service. "I wanna quit Rogers!!"
I called them, because my cell phone bill for last month was a ridiculously high $125 in one month. So I was like, "I need to cancel my service" at which point the lady that I was talking to I'm sure put on her sweet voice, and said, as sympathetically as she could, "may I ask why?"
That opened a whole can of worms, to talk about all the problems with Rogers, and with my phone, and somehow, at the end of the conversation, I not only found it impossible to quit Rogers, but I also found myself with a new plan, (that is more expensive, but will save me money in the long run) and a new phone!
Oh dear. I am not good at saying no.

On a side note, Sarah is back! Yay. It's so exciting...we got to see her for a couple of days. We went camping (with the church), had a party, ate Earls, and well, just hang out. It was good. And only three more restaurant shifts, before I go to work for the rest of the summer at my church, as the assistant to the children's pastor. It will be much more fun than waiting tables!

Falling.

I don't know why I posted this picture...it is completely random. It is me and Larissa up on the Calgary tower, and we are standing on the glass floor pretending that we are falling off. Hmm...I feel like that is what my life feels like lately. I am falling...and I just feel kind of out of control to stop it or fix it! Nothing huge is happening to me, but I just feel almost like life is happening around me, you know? I am part of it, and I am enjoying it, but I feel as though there are so many more things I'd like to be doing, but I just can't, because there never seems to be enough hours in a day or days in a week. And then when I do actually have a few hours off, I think, "I should do something fun" and then I realize how exhausted I am and I just sit at home and veg.
I wish that I could change things. I wish that I could help people, fix things, be there for more people, take away pain, etc... It is HARD to participate in suffering alongside other people, and not be able to fix it.
I am constantly reminded and refreshed by the promise that God will always be there when we fall. When we are falling. When we have fallen and are laying, sprawled out on the ground, wondering if we will ever be able to get back up.

June already...

Wow. It is June already. It has been two months since I've written in here.
Hmmm...what has happened?

I am working at an Indonesian restaurant downtown in Calgary...to make some cash. A couple of weeks ago one of the brand new (from Indonesia) kitchen guys stabbed the other one a bunch of times...and they both ended up in the hospital for a week, and the restaurant was closed for two weeks. It was fairly traumatic...although I wasn't there. I was supposed to be there, but I was coming in late that day because I had a migraine...and it happened like 15 minutes before I got there! Yikes.

I moved. I now live in Ranchlands, which is in the North West of Calgary, and MUCH closer to Cochrane, thank goodness...so it is way easier and faster to get out to see my sister and family, and to do church stuff. The move was incredibly stressful and well, let's just say, we still have some relational kinks to work out between us roommates! But things are getting settled.

I am also working at the walk-in clinic again, although I have switched clinics to one closer to my house, which is awesome. But between the restaurant and the walk-in clinic, today will be my 13th day in a row of work. So I'm ready to have a one-day break tomorrow, before I start another 12 day stretch. Blah.

I can't think of anything else right now, but I'm sure I'll think of something else soon.